Anger -- one of those emotions on which action comes first and realisation the next. And I guess that's the reason why many a people find it difficult to manage or put a period on the conversation when it is pumped out at this state. This is one emotion which we can trace back to all our issues - international or mere domestic. I was just wondering why not put a little thought into this complex emotion.
Why do we get angry? This is the first question that comes to my mind.. The reasons could be many, an incident that dint hold up to your expectation, or a continuously lingering thought that managed to get its way thorough the mind and create the impact.. the reason for this emotiona l outburst could be any number crossing a thousand. But all these reasons, I guess, can be summarised and brought into one single point of thought and that according to me would be "Expectation".
Expectations... every thought in a relationship revolves around this concept. We just have to probe a person to list out his/her expectations and am sure the list would run down to pages. Mother, father, husband, wife, children, siblings, friends, manager, colleague, subordinates.. ... this is one emotion that is common in all the relationships. And forget about relationship, we should be using the word every human, known or unknown. For instance even a passerby whom you don't notice is also not exempted out of this emotion. Even he'll have the basic expectation that you'll give space for him to move through the path way. A person who is unknown to you, but then if you don't stand up to that one thought of his, the result might be an embarrassing scowl or a stare. We are so accustomed to this emotion that we don't even spare the people whom we are unaware of and it would be more than easy to imagine what would be the impact when it comes to those close relationships.
An unmet expectation lead to anger, hatred and all those emotions that is considered as toxic for our mind, body and soul. Still we humans, the most evolved of the beings go on in our way, unaware of the impacts. Is it because we are not yet ready to meet the expectation of the One above all of us, who is the creator and mentor? Talking about that I wonder, if HE also is strangled in the webs of these unnerving emotions like anger and expectations from one of His most beautiful creations - the creation with a fully evolved brain and free will!
There are few more emotions that can be talked together with, here - Ego and Fear. I guess these 2 emotions are also closely associated with Anger. Any comment or action that pricks out on a person's ego would bring out a response crammed with anger and similar is the case, i guess, with Fear too. The fear as it is can exist at different levels and it is mostly the fear of losing that pumps out anger filled statements.
Will there ever be a day when man is free of all these emotions that displays the insecurity in him? Man one of the most powerful creation -- will the creator ever would have thought that he'll be the most insecure one in the whole creation? Even with all the thinking abilities, we are unsure of the results of our own actions and there's this accompanied fear of losing the identity. Why....??? Why are we so insecure in life...?? For that matter Who are we afraid of..? The fellow beings who are struggling just as we are...?? Since the only one above us is the Creator himself, who is not ready for any kind of a competition with us, i guess its our own friends and relations that we are competing with -- the fellow beings!!!!
If you ask me, I am tired.. tired of this unending struggle to keep up the pace with others in the race. I want to sit back and relax... is it possible? I am not very sure if I can make it up to the statement I just made. May be I am looking for company, another set of people who will join me to stay back, so that I am not alone -- I guess the fear of being alone might push me to join the race and move forward along with the racing group. The typical thought of the human... even the worst wrong becomes the most right if it is backed up by more than one single hand. Isnt it?